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02-08-11, 09:13 AM #1
What keeps me going...
Cops wives do not live normal lifestyles. Our daily paths are traveled only by us, and only glimpsed at by our children and close family.
A normal day at the our house begins with the most annoying alarm on the planet. My husband sets his iphone to the "Alarm" setting and truly it works. Especially with the volume set all the way up (and the phone charging on my side of the bed.) I reach over, fighting the urge to throw the thing out the window, and just hit snooze. He sets it to go off 10 minutes earlier than he has to for some reason. This is my least favorite time of day, you see, my husband is being pulled from our bed and is beckoned to the streets to serve and protect. Hmmmmm........ to serve and protect. I love that phrase.
I reach over and touch my husbands shoulder and whisper "Its time to get up." I hear a grumbly moan as he rolls over and pulls me to him. He reminds me of a 10 year old not wanting to get out of bed, hugging up to his teddy bear and not letting go until he absolutely has to. Maybe this is why he sets his alarm 10 minutes early. Morning snuggle time is so nice. I feel the warmth of his chest as I lay my head against him. He kisses my forehead and strokes my hair. And I thank God for letting me wake up next to the love of my life one more day. I can hear his heartbeat and the slight noise of the ceiling fan. For a few minutes every single morning my world is perfect and calm and nothing can disturb it. His alarm goes off again and this time he gets up. He tells me that he loves me and that I should go back to sleep. So I roll over and pull the covers up and he begins his day.
He disappears into the bathroom. Door shut and the sounds of electric toothbrush and face washing faintly escape from behind the door. He finishes his morning grooming then ever so mindfully he turns off the light before he opens the door again. You see, the light from the bathroom falls directly onto my side of the bed and he thinks I am back to sleep. I listen as he pulls a fresh shirt from the closet and prepares to pin it. He carefully shines his badge first. Always the badge first. He is cop through and through and I think that there is brass somewhere in his DNA. He takes his time, lining the pins up perfectly. Once his shirt is done, he sets it aside.
He sits by my feet to put on his socks. I feel his hands gently squeeze my feet and its as if he is telling me that he hasn't left yet, and more importantly hasn't forgotten my goodbye kiss. He slides on his long sleeve Under Amor. Oh my God, his undershirts HAVE to be Under Armor. In my mind I am smiling because he is finding every piece of uniform that I laid out acceptable. I have learned that certain colors and certain shirt types are not acceptable, and the last thing I want is to interrupt his morning flow by having him hunt for a particular undershirt or thick or thin socks.
He finishes getting dressed, and I hear him zip up his boots, then it is time to check his duty rig. He checks his pistol and ammo, cuffs, pepper spray, then off to the kitchen to retrieve his radio from the charger to go "10-8." That's when the pang in my tummy hits. He is officially on duty now. He is officially protecting and serving. Remember I said I love that phrase. To you this means to help little old ladies cross the street and to direct school traffic. To you this means to serve court papers and a few summonses and then meet at the Circle K for gas and coffee. To me this means so much more. As soon as my husband checks in for the day, he is not just my husband anymore. For the entirety of his shift he is at the beckon call of everyone is this area. He is a first responder at the scene of an accident. He is a target to the guy who is pissed off at the "system." He is teaching young children to Just say No. He is getting another gun off the street. He is taking a report from a victim of a robbery. He is looking for a lost child. He is pulling over a suspicious vehicle. He is putting his life on the line... for you.
He comes to my side of the bed and kneels down, gently nudging my neck with his face and kissing me so tenderly. I kiss him back and tell him "I love you. No unnecessary risks. Promise!" He replies "I love you too, and I promise." He gets up and makes his way out of our bedroom door, pausing to squeeze my foot one more time. I listen as he peeks into our son's bedroom first, then our girls' room. All is quiet so he heads down the hall, closing the hall door behind him before going outside so the cold air doesn't find its way back to me or the kids. And with that he is gone. Starting another day with peace of mind. I cannot let him know that I worry. He wouldn't be able to focus 100% if he thought I were worrying.
Every day I watch with pride and fear as my husband prepares himself for another day of protecting and serving. Though the thought of my husband putting his life on the line for everyone in our community is not appealing, the truth is that there is no one on the planet I trust more to protect and serve. What keeps me going is his faith in humanity and his passion for fighting for what is right. What keeps me going is his love for our children. What keeps me going is his love for me. And his commitment to see things through. The job is a part of him. He is a part of me. Though I may work, my job is to be his helper. I am that by design. I am his backup when he is backing up the world. He promotes peace on the street and I work to make his home peaceful. I am a cops wife, and I love my life.
02-08-11, 09:17 AM #2
Wow... just wow. Happy anniversary, honey.
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02-08-11, 09:19 AM #3
You ma'am have my admiration.Do not war for peace. If you must war, war for justice. For without justice there is no peace. -me
We are who we choose to be.
R.I.P. Arielle. 08/20/2010-09/16/2012
02-08-11, 09:39 AM #4
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02-08-11, 09:44 AM #6
What beautiful and eloquent reflections. You bears are such a perfect match for each other! Happy anniversary!
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02-08-11, 10:34 AM #8APB Guest
Well said, ma'am. A happy anniversary to you both.
02-08-11, 10:37 AM #9
Happy Aniversary !!SI VIS PACEM PARA BELLUM-Ex-Sheriff Martin Howe to Will Kane in "High Noon"
"It's a great life. You risk your skin catching killers and the juries turn them loose so they can come back and shoot at you again. If your honest , your poor your whole life. And , In the end , you wind up dying all alone on some dirty street. For what? For nothing. For a tin star."
Far from being a handicap to command, compassion is the measure of it. For unless one values the lives of his soldiers and is tormented by their ordeals , he is unfit to command.
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02-08-11, 11:34 AM #10
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02-08-11, 11:48 AM #11
That was a great........no awesome post. Thank you for sharing that with us.
Happy Anniversary!"An Unarmed man can only flee from evil, and evil is not overcome by fleeing from it." Jeff Cooper
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02-08-11, 12:21 PM #12
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02-08-11, 12:22 PM #13
Dayum, memo to myself: Self, find yourself one just like her!
Happy Anniversary, folks.
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02-08-11, 01:19 PM #15
That was a great post. It was nice to be there with you last year!'Political Correctness is a doctrine fostered by a
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02-08-11, 01:24 PM #16-=Twan007
Lack of planning on your part does not constitute an emergency on mine.
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02-08-11, 02:08 PM #17
Good words, Mam! Happy anniversary!*************************"It wouldn't take much for me to up and run...to another life somewhere in the sun."*************************"There's something inherently wrong with having to put on a bullet-proof vest and a gun to go to work."-(An old friend)
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02-08-11, 03:24 PM #18
Lovely post...reps sent.
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Happy Anniversary very nice post!Check your feelings at the door!
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02-09-11, 12:23 AM #20
Fantastic! Thank you for sharing...and happy anniversary you two!--"D.B.A.D." --Me
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